Living Mye Life

How do you battle emptiness? The sudden sadness that creeps within you and makes your heart flutter and renders you immobile.

I tried diverting my time in what we call decluttering our endless old clothes and unusable things but the moment you stops, then the feelings went back again. I can’t think even a happy thought right now. I’m so sad.

Was I thinking too much? Was I worried that a transfer of site from our current work may mean I need to resign?  Because it is way too far from our house, and I know I can’t handle the travel by commute. Was I affected of my colleague’s sickness? Was I badly needing a miracle to stop overthinking?

I keep on praying to God that in times like this, may He be my cane to remain standing amidst the storms that coming my way.

There will always be a silver lining

It’s 2023, new year. There are lot to be thankful for from year 2022 but there were lot of challenges and trials too.

I know for me that challenges and trials are like my twin sister.  It was always on my side.  But hey, I’m doing my best to defy the gravity. I look and think of all the happy days and moments in my life and convincing my own self that happiness is a choice.

As I am preparing our table in between the online NYE mass we are attending, a viber post in our group chat made me stop.  I thought it was a typical Happy New Year greeting, its almost 11pm last night. But she posted a hand with IV tubes in an obvious area,  a hospital.

My coworker had a rough month in the middle of the year last year.  But she overcome it, deep inside she’s really fighting for it, emotionally, physically, spiritually, financially.   And during after being renewed again and getting back on her feet, she drop the bomb, she said she had a mild stroke a day before the New Year’s Eve.  Seeing her hands with all the tubes of IV and some other medicines attached to her vein, I just felt weak and said no… this can’t be her. Not her my God ☹ but as she confirmed that she was confined in a hospital, my heart sank and I can’t help to think, God she’s so young to endure two major blows in her life and within 1 year.

I had a near death experience with covid virus last 2021 and till now the post covid aftershocks and symptoms I still experiencing is quite physically and emotionally draining till now.  But with her case, I just cried before and now still cry with her and whenever I think of her situation,  as I’m writing now, my heart is aching.

I want to help her emotionally knowing I must deal with my own emotion. But hers is different with what I am having right and it’s not comparable.  Financially, I think this one will really stress you out when you have medical issues. I am praying I can still help if I can. I just hope and pray that this too shall pass.

God help her. I’m praying for her healing; we need Your divine intervention to stop these dreadful diseases. With Your healing hands we pray. Amen.