I’m having a moment right now. I was feeling this awkward feeling that
something is missing and when I think of it, I can’t think of any. I wanted to eat something I saw in one of the
Facebook post about food recipes and when I told them (my family) that I wanted
that, they all looked at me like … “What?? Are you pregnant??!” And they are
looking too happy that I cringe. I don’t
want to get pregnant anymore (for so many valid reasons) and I want to enjoy my
small family as it is.
I want to go to some place, where I can be happy and just
lay down and enjoy my mango shake and a slice of my favorite cheese cake, but I
can’t because I have work and it requires spending more money, and my weekend
is fully booked with household chores that I need to finish before the weekend
ends and before I can go and stroll at the mall. But heaven knows, I really wanted to book that
one hotel in Tagaytay for days because of the discount and because I think I really
deserve to have a break.
I kind of feel lonely.
I really wanted to sleep all day but you know that I can’t. I’m thinking of a lot of things to do at the
same time and then feel alone because I have to consider other factors. Well, I blame it on my late period, it came 3
days after my due date and it’s safe to say that all these hormones I’m feeling is because of
that. It will all go away. Oh gosh, it’s not that easy to be us (women) J
