All is Well

… Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for his own? No one—for God himself has given us right standing with himself. Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us.

You created us, chose us, bought us, reconciled us, and delight in us. Who cares what anybody else thinks, says, or feels about us? Forgive us for giving any other voice more power over our hearts than yours—whether it’s the accusations of the devil or the meanness of men, the contempt of our shame or the flattery of the world. – Scotty Smith www.thegospelcoalition.org

When I feel the familiar pain in my heart and the sleep begins to betrays me, I feel so all alone.  I started to browse my phone book and wish somebody would talk to me to keep my mind off things.  The resentment and betrayal started to rise and clouded my mind, because I wanted to give all the justifications I want to be free from this hurt.  I would do anything not to feel the pain, to escape this nightmare and to just go back the way it used to be before.

That’s when I started to read some of the write ups and stories about asking for forgiveness and giving it all to God.  The above article I’ve read is the exact feeling I have since the day it happens. Who am I to whine? To complain?

This is the lessons you will learn the hard way.  You will be shamed, provoked, but it doesn’t mean that God left us to depend ourselves, God never let His children wonder the forest alone, He will always be there for us, for me.

As I write this story, I felt that the heaviness in my heart started to go away, that’s how I know that God touches me to remind me that He will be with me every step of the way.